Staying Here

So, like I said, I now live in Mass. The objective now is to stay here. Meaning, find a job, find some money, find a school, find some purpose. If I'm going to be a waste, I should go back home where I can be a waste for free. JLB will be expecting rent soon, and that's not going to be cool if I don't have an income.

I did apply to some jobs here. 2. I interviewed for one of those jobs and would LOVE to be hired. It sounds fabulous. Personally, I felt the interview went really well. It seemed like they did, too. But, who knows? They said they will call within the next 2 weeks to let me know. ack.

I'm waiting.

I know I should be applying to other jobs now. And I will! I just... don't want to find.. and maybe get.. a job that would keep me from saying 'yes' if this job calls me back. In the meantime, though, I wait.

I have a ton of things to do to keep me busy and my mind from overanalyzing every moment and every questions, deciding what was good, bad, ugly, and what may be the factor that keeps them from loving me. I have to clean up the paint supplies from my room and move in. Unpack clothes, unpack kitchen things, desk things, bathroom things, etc. Clean my mess from the house. Wash clothes. Buy food. Etc, etc, etc.

Study for the GRE so I can actually go to school in the fall (next fall, not this one, there's no option for this one. And, NO, I don't know what school) and not be a complete waste.

Find a school so I can answer people with something other than a snarl when they inquire.

Get a couple of jobs so I can afford to go to the school I've selected and applied to (NO, I don't know which schools!!!).

Goddammit. I hope they call me. I hope they hire me.

I need that job!!!!!!